| Location | St Helens |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 15/12/2006 |
| Date of Death | 15/12/2006 |
| Visitors | 616 since 24/04/2009 |
| Creator |
sam was born at 32 weeks to miss elaine hoban and mr karzan bilbaz.we knew when i went into labour that sam had passed away.Id had a small dot of blood and dull ache in my stomach that was all and had gone to the hospital to check if everything was ok.they gave me a scan i swear my heart broke there and then its so hard to describe .they gave my pessary gell to help me go into labour.And for two days we waited at home for your birth to begin.nothing seemed real .But sure enough labour began early morning 15/12/06 you was born at 18:37 15/12/06.Although i already knew youd gone i waited for you to cry ,breath,move anything but you didnt.You looked just like a tiny angel me and daddy kept you with us all night held you and sang you songs it may sound stupid but i felt like u could hear me.the midwives who looked after us were really nice but they couldnt take away the pain of losing you nothing every could .theres not a single day goes by that i dont think about u and wish u was here.your our angel our daughter and we love you .
I carried you for seven long months
... looking forward to your birth
Little did I ever know
you'd never breath on earth
I'd made such plans for your life,
looking forwards to bringing you home
I never though for one second
When I came home I’d be alone
They said there been some complications,
they said that you had gone
I couldn't understand their words
What had happened? What had gone wrong?
Now they don’t want to talk of you
the people who drop by
They think that I should just accept
my baby's in the sky.
I’ll keep a part of you with me
and everywhere I am you’ll be
I know we’ll meet again some day
Then in my arms you'll always stay
Every day I’ll think of you
think of you with love
My precious little baby,
my angel up above.
Born Still - by Unknown Author
Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
... Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting her sleepy head?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
Knowing she's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?
For a Special ~Angel
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we longed for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.
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-----\_________/-- merry christmas sweet pea love always mummy daddy big sisters rebecca and katie and baby sister hannah xxxxxxxxx
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, he'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear his tiny footsteps come running to your side
His little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace him in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still his mother.
Holding out these empty arms
Cursing my disillusionment
Why did I imagine it could be any other way
that I could have been content, dreams that’s all it was,
Mothers arms are not meant to be empty
I look up at the sky, tears filling my eyes,
Searching the stars trying to find my angel
The brightest star I search for
Finding it the first tear rolls down my cheek
Memories flood back of our short time together
Love totally encasing my heart as I look at that star
I know you are there baby I will never forget
I just can’t come to accept as I look that you are so far
I would have cuddled and loved you kept you safe
Within my arms holding you in a tight embrace
I will search these skies for you each night
But just for now have to leave you in Gods guiding light
Sleep well my baby one day my arms and heart will be full again
As I join you and give you all that was meant to be
my angel sam
my Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before
But from now until she dies,
She’ll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can’t explain,
She will tell a little lie
because she can’t describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She’ll say "I’m alright".
If that’s the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well,
She didn’t have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
"I’m fine, I’m well, I’m coping".
For God’s sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken,
She’ll love me all her life
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She’ll lie and say she’s fine.
I am here in Heaven
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don’t listen
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We’ll smile and I’ll be bold.
I’ll say,
"You’re lucky to get in here, Mum,with all the lies you told x
the cord
We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.
This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.
I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.
The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.
And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.
It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.
I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away
my angel sam
When God calls little children
to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child,
Who does so much to make our world
seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to his fold.
So He picks a rosebud
before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them
and so He takes but few.
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult
still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be "Good-bye".
So when a little child departs
we who are left behind,
Must realize God loves children
and Angels are hard to find
Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
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